Monday, October 5, 2009

Bitter Sweet Days

We are six weeks out until the new baby arrives. We are gearing up for the emotional journey we know will come with our newest blessing - the reminders of Rose when she was a newborn and her too short sweet life which is still so fresh in our memories, praise God.

I know the experience with welcoming our new baby girl will be bitter sweet like every blessing in life has been since we lost Rose and I am sure will continue to be until the end of our days here on earth.

It is hard to explain welcoming the feelings of sadness, pain and grief but we gratefully accept these feelings as they always take us back to our Rose.

People mourn our so loss deeply because they themselves cannot imagine losing a child and thankfully most people will not not have to. What I want people to know is amazingly with time and faith God gives us a way to work through the grief. When we believe in God the Father, that Jesus was the Savior of the world and He died to open the gates of heaven then we know no matter how deep our grief goes we always come back to the same point - although we miss Rose with all our beings, we know she is happy and at peace. We know she will never have the opportunity to sin, she is in the arms of our loving Savior, she is where we want our children, our loved ones and ourselves to be. We just have to be patient while waiting for our journey here to end. Isn't this why we are here on earth? To live a life of love in accordance with God's will so that we may live with Him forever in eternity?

Dear God, help us long to be with Jesus the way we long to be with our Rose.

1 comment:

Kathryn said...

Leslie, as the day draws nearer, you are in my prayers...especially in the wee hours of the morning. You are an amazing woman of faith, from whom I've learned and been inspired. God bless.